New Portfolio & Revamped IG

Oh, look. It’s another post. See? I am trying to make an effort tot his use this thing more.

So if my readers didn’t already know or don’t follow me on social media, or simply didn’t read my last entry from yesterday — I dedicated an entirely new website to my photography, and I kinda revamped my photography account on Instagram to reflect the steps I made towards putting more effort into making my photography dreams into a reality.

I made my portfolio using Squarespace. They weren’t kidding when all of the sponsored bits of the YouTube videos I’ve watched mentioned how easy it is. I think I was skeptical and hesitant because of 2 main things: MONEY and EXECUTION.

I don’t really consider myself to be one of those individuals who live paycheck to paycheck, luckily, but also I wasn’t exactly sure how wanting to put forth a portfolio would be worth my return on the investment. Along with having much less opportunities to “go out there” and take pictures, and then have the time to edit them, and then post them. It seemed like it would’ve been more work than what I would get out of it all in return.

But after I really looked at my life, all of my youth wasted on working my 9-5, I finally decided, “I’ll never be able to do it unless I do it now.” All that motivational reading from scrolling through all the positivity posts on Instagram and words of wisdom from some of my favorite poets and authors and even mentors at my day job, really helped put me in that mindset to just go for it. Now if only I could do it for other things… I’m still working on it. But for now, this is a good start.

Taking this first step wasn’t as bad as I thought, but now is the time to keep going. I feel like I’ll be struggling, but I know I’ll never understand what progress I’ve made if I wasn’t struggling. Right now, I’m struggling with creating some kind of routine. The next project I gave myself is to go through my cousin’s wedding photos, edit them, and post them on my portfolio. This is what I get for having burst shot on and ending the wedding day with 1200+ photos to go through for the selection process. I’ll get through it somehow… Just need to take it one thought at a time.

With the Instagram account (@avstudios.photo), I’ve been taking small steps and keeping up a routine that I just suddenly started doing out of the blue. I started posting 1 thing a day on the account early first thing in the morning. Honestly, it started in the midst of me writing an email to a client, but as stated before: “I’ll never be able to do it unless I do it now.” So we’ll see how this goes…

That’s all I have for tonight. More soon!

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5/6 of the way through 2020

I feel like I’m starting over and anew again, but it’s only because I’m repurposing this site to be strictly a blog, an online journal of my thoughts. Thoughts that I will more than likely only update while I’m working, because some of the thoughts that normally come to me that I want to take note of and document is while I’m working.

So here we go again.

And for anyone that asks, I have not stopped doing photography. I just moved my portfolio over to Squarespace and built a website dedicated to my shots there. You can check it out @ avstudios.net

Now that my shameless plug is over, time to list all the things that have happened since my last update in May:

  • Still a pandemic happening, but the world has turn laxed and reopened mostly everything back up and I disagree with it
  • Extensions to working remote seems neverending, which is okay with me
  • Started streaming on Twitch in July and made a few new friends along the way
  • Dad was diagnosed with stage 4 brain cancer
  • Moved back in with my parents
  • Finished an internal project at work that was solely under my control
  • Cousin got married and I was the photographer for her engagement shoot and wedding
  • Been selling my things on ebay to get some extra moneys
  • Laptop pooped itself when malware attacked it for a very short period of time, thus leading me to visit our new office to get a temporary swap
  • Started a new photography portfolio website on Squarespace
  • Dad going mental

That is pretty much the gist of everything that has happened within the last 5 months.

I know I say this every time, but I will make more of an effort to use this thing.

Until next time.

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Heading into Week 8 of this Quarantine Business

covid-19 guidelines for households

We’re coming up on 8 weeks of being quarantined in our homes, and I just wanted to reflect on the happenings, or lackthereof, so far. At first, people were doubtful and scared to go out. But then there are the people who just don’t care or don’t understand the importance of staying home, inturn they are putting themselves as well as the people around them at risk.

I do give it to those people that absolutely cannot stand being alone who actually distance themselves. Upon doing my weekly grocery store runs, I have seen people “hang out” in to parking lots, but they literally keep their distance… usually forming a circle with each people looking like they’re at least 6 feet apart. Like, okay cool, I get it.

There’s no talking to the people who don’t give a shit about what the government or the CDC says about social distancing, the people who want the state to re-open. Do they not have enough sense to find things to do indoors? Have they not heard about Facetime or other video chat apps that allow them to converse and socialize with other people from afar? We live in an age where all of this is possible now… but seeing as how some people still don’t take advantage of the technology that we have, those people are still living under a rock apparently.

Some of the kids that you normally see walking around on a normal day… are still… just walking around, closer than the 6 feet recommendation. The only difference from a normal day is… they’re more frequent, since all the schools are out for the rest of the academic year.

A client that I talk to frequently brought up a point that not everyone has is easy to just stay at home comfortably… and this was in dealing with the troubled homes, anyone dealing with domestic violence and those who are abused at home. I get that home is worse place for them to be, but there’s got to be alternatives to that side of things as well. I don’t know… I can only hope for good things.

Other the other hand, for anyone that needs to hear this: There’s no need to be afraid [of going outside]. You can confine yourselves to your homes, that’s fine. Honestly, I think you have a better chance of being physically safe and healthy than those ignorant enough to disobey the social distancing guidelines out there. But your health and well-being are important as well. You’re going to need to restock on essentials, what you need to continue living. Even if it’s just a step outside your front door, to take a deep breath of the beautiful nature that’s still out there. Just be smart about going out: wear a mask. If you’re a germaphobe, wear gloves if you have to. Then disinfect yourselves when you get home. 

All that I mentioned above should in general just apply to everyone, not just the scared ones. But I’m mainly directing this to the ignorant ones out there. You don’t have to cause a riot or do a stupid march at the Boardwalk to prove that you’re bored or that you don’t have a job anymore. This is just my opinion and I haven’t seen things from the other perspective yet, but I believe the health of the population is more important than anything else. Yes, a lot of lives have been changed by this virus outbreak. The entire world has changed. And I know there is a line between just everyone’s health in general versus what helps people stay healthy (income from jobs). But if anything, and I might sound silly, this helps us really understand the old fashioned ways of living. Or, this could just be the start, the birth of a new way to live. Who knows?

This new quarantined lifestyle has taught me some things:

  • Only take/buy what you need. These damned toilet paper/paper products rations are fucking ridiculous.
  • I’ve saved money by ONLY buying groceries for the past 8 weeks, and it’s mostly thanks to the stimulus checks we received. Oh, and with the exception of my recent Amazon order, but they were essential things that I can’t find at grocery stores.
  • Talking to friends and family and checking in on them are more important than ever. It has always been an important thing that I always took advantage of, but it has helped me realize that staying in touch has also been important and that it’s more important than ever to keep it going, even during these times.

neon lights message saying things will be fine

I think this is it for this entry. I’m hoping things will look up soon, such as a cure to this outbreak. I know someone who did a test for antibodies, someone who was almost on the brink of death from being super ill back in January of this year. And this may just be the answer the entire world needs to get rid of this outbreak. Keep your fingers crossed and your minds positive. Oh, and stay safe y’all.

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Quarantine Life

cat laying on desk next to monitor connected to a laptop

I couldn’t get anymore original with the title, but what else is there?

For the past 2 weeks, I’ve been working remote and staying indoors, for the most part. I say “for the most part” only because I did leave the house twice within these 2 weeks to restock on groceries and other essentials.

We now live in a world where toilet paper is being rationed.

Shopping for groceries to keep us stocked for an unforeseen amount of time is difficult, especially when you have a boyfriend who isn’t frugal with his food. What I mean by that is he gets way too much dip for his chips or way too much marinara sauce for his mozzarella sticks that he has leftovers, and when he does, he just throws the leftover dip away. Eek.

Working from home was okay at first, but there are just too many distractions for me.

I’ve been staying with my boyfriend instead of my apartment on the other side of the water. At my apartment, I’d probably be the only person because my roommate still has to physically go into work, and I think the same applies for her fiance. I’d be working from my small room and putting on lofi in the background, occasionally getting up to warm up some food, then wait for them to come home. The only thing that’d be missing is my boyfriend.

But because I’ve been staying at my boyfriend’s place and being isolated from the outside world with him and his 2 other roommates, there have been way too many distractions. Okay, not THAT many, but it feels like it. For one, his TV which is connected to my hand-me-down computer has the video games that I just want to play as soon as I get off… not even, I’d RATHER be playing than working when I’m working. And now that Animal Crossing has been released, that has been taking a lot of my attention also. Video games in itself is a huge distraction because of the amount of time it takes to play a certain game. I’ve found myself waking up every morning and turning on my Switch to play Animal Crossing first thing while still lying in bed.

me lying in bed cuddled up with boyfriend and Nintendo switch in hand

Why am I complaining? I get to stay in bed as long as I can until I literally have to roll out of bed to get on my laptop. Not having to get up and get ready to shower to go somewhere I guess is nice.

But I am starting to feel like I’m in a rut again. I’ve been cooped up in one place for too long and I just wanna go back out there and go about my days before this pandemic started. Doing those zealous tasks of getting up, showering, getting dressed, preparing for the day makes me feel motivated and to do things. My boyfriend is completely fine with this though, being his extreme introverted self.

Which is why I’m taking a wee break form playing video games (kinda) and getting back to this website and my bullet journal, and just other things in general. It’s a new month in a few days and this is the perfect opportunity to plan for the year ahead… even if it’s spent in quarantine. Gotta keep my head up during these times.

That’s it for now. I’ll end this post by posting a cute picture of my boyfriend’s sleepy kitty, Trigger.

sleepy black cat laying on blanket

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So far in 2020…

Two coffee lattes in yellow cup with saucer on brown wooden table

I’m already doing terrible with updating this thing, but some kind of effort is better than none, right?

I originally wanted to start off this post with a quote, which I saw on one of my daily care/of vitamin packs from last month:

Change your life today. Don’t gamble on the future, act now, without delay.
– Simone de Beauvoir

I’ve been on a productive kick since the year started… and then things started dwindling down when I went to the doctor over a month ago for a lump in my throat. To save all the boring details, I’ll just say that I’ve been through a series of many appointments and it’s been almost 2 months and I’m still trying to find out what’s been going on. Hopefully, it’s not too bad.

Back to when I said I’ve been on a productive kick, I had so many ideas for my bullet journal and things that I want to accomplish this year. Starting with my bullet journal, I got so excited about working on my bujo that I got a head of myself and already designed my March spreads within the first week of February. It is now the 2nd of March, and I have a strong urge to continue on to April. But I’m saving the planning for closer to the end of March, and my friend actually wants me to wait for her to catch up on her bujo. And so I will.

The previous statement totally goes against the quote, but I have been trying to accomplish things at a much faster pace than I have been the last several years. My bujo is only a tool that is helping me work towards my accomplishments.

I’ve let so much time passed from when I originally started this post and I still have yet to share more updates, and with pictures! I will update again much sooner than from the last time.

Stay tuned.

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