I’ve taken yet another unexpected break from my YouTube life. These days, I just want to watch K-dramas as soon as I get home from work and not worry about making or editing videos. I’m so late on a few releases that have been out for almost 2 weeks already, but I just haven’t had the energy. My day job is about to hit our busy season again, and I’ve already drained enough as it is when we weren’t super duper busy.
Besides me complaining about being constantly tired, I’ve been wanting to share some new (and some old) music that I’ve been listening to recently. Over the past several months, it seems like songs about the heartbreaking side of love and enduring hardships have been finding their way to my “on repeat” playlists, on both the angst-y and depressing side. Here’s a list of those songs, in no particular order:
I’ll post something less depressing and more substantial soon. Baiiii.
EDIT: I know I took a long break from posting here, and I hate that I only came back just to post about this touchy subject. But I will be back very soon…
From a young age, I’ve always been taught not to say bad things, one of them being (because of the obvious title of this post haha) the “N” word. For the naive and innocent who don’t know the “N” word (God bless you for not being exposed to it, but also God help you for not knowing what it means), it is “nigger”, or “nigga”. It’s a bit of a weird feeling that I’m experiencing right now as I type this blog because I know this is a touchy subject for some people.
I’ve always had an aversion to saying it, for 2 reasons that a majority of people may be able to relate to:
Some people get offended by it, and…
Frankly, for the plain reason that I don’t feel the need to say it.
After watching The Jess Lyfe‘s P E W D I E P I E video that she just uploaded earlier this evening — and, yes, I watched the entire thing — my stance doesn’t change: I don’t need to say it. But there are just a few things that I wanted to vent out about… a look from a different perspective, if you will.
Before I go any further, I just want to state (if it wasn’t obvious enough) that I agree with her: the “N” word should not be used in a negative context. I am not a follower or subscriber of PewDiePie. I have watched maybe 1 or 2 of his videos, but that was a really LOOOONG time ago, when he first stepped into the YouTube scene in 2010. I don’t really care for him, so I don’t intend on following him. I also want to state that I’m not writing this to hurt or offend anyone.
What I am about to say next is merely an observation from a personal experience, so please hear me out from this perspective:
I live in the state of Virginia, which is home to several historically black colleges and universities (HBCUs), so the community here would be one of many that are impacted by current events and social media in relation to this touchy subject. I had a friend, who is pure Filipino, that attended Norfolk State University, a HBCU, and had black friends… whom he regarded as his “niggas”, and… they took no offense to it, whatsoever. Shamelessly, I like to people watch, and I’ve seen it happen in a case where a white person wasn’t allowed to say it until the black person said it first. I thought it was silly, but I’ve witnessed it.
Now, I don’t know if it is the technicality that a non-white (Filipino) person said the “N” word that made it okay for them, but the point that I want to make (and the main reason for me staying up past midnight) that goes against one of The Jess Lyfe’s other points is I don’t think she should generalize the idea that “if you’re not black, you shouldn’t say it.” I can’t speak for black people, but I don’t think she should speak for all black people and make that point. Like all races and ethnicities, not everyone is the same. Like how not all white people are the same, not all black people are the same. Based on my observations, not all black people are like her and have that same rage about this subject. Some don’t even care.
Just my 2 cents…
You can watch The Jess Lyfe’s P E W D I E P I E video below:
On Thursday, I took the day off to have a mental health day and spend it with my best friend. We took a day trip to D.C. and Annandale, and I made a quick video using the snaps from my IG and Snapchat story.
On the way up there…
First, we stopped by Bread Garden in Newport News to get some breakfast…and lunch. We just got a few things of bread and kimbap. It was a good thing that I bought the kimbap because midway through the rest of the drive up to D.C., it was practically lunch time.
We finally reached D.C. and it was a b**** trying to find parking around the Smithsonian Institution National Museum of Natural History. We eventually found parking and started walking towards the museum. It was awesome to find out that admission into the museum was free, but they were doing heavy bag searching. The first thing we did was wander around the Mammal and Ocean exhibits. It was like being in the zoo, but with taxidermy animals. Then, we went to the second floor to see the bones of animals, which eventually led us into Nicki’s favorite part of the museum which was the mummies. After seeing the mummy exhibit, we went straight into the dinosaur exhibit and found a “fossilized T.rex poop”, which obviously wasn’t real. But it was still pretty amusing that they included it in the exhibit. The last thing we did before leaving the museum was see the Hope Diamond, which was 45.52 carats!
After the museum, we went towards Annandale, which is basically Virginia’s Korea town and just 15 minutes away from D.C.
The first place we went to was The Face Shop, which was heaven for face masks and other skin care products. Then, we went to Lil’ Thingamajigs nearby and it was so hard to shop in there. They have things from K-pop merch, to cute home decor and stationery, to jewelry and other accessories. I was having a difficult time around the K-pop albums because I couldn’t decide between the latest Monsta X albums that came in 2 different repackages for Shine Forever, and then I couldn’t decide if I should get another album because K-pop albums are pretty expensive. But I eventually caved in and got BTS’s You Never Walk Alone album. I got a couple of other small things, but those albums took up the bulk of my spending there.
After shopping for a bit, we went to eat dinner at Honey Pig. Samgyeopsal and bulgogi all around. Ssam and soju. By the way, 2 shots of soju already got me feeling loosey goosey that night. I wish I could eat like that every single day of my life. After dinner, we went to Shilla Bakery to get dessert and bring some bread to-go. We shared a mint chocolate chip bingsoo, which had strawberries and marshmallows in it, which was unexpected, but we weren’t complaining. It was amazing!
Both of us suffered from food coma as we headed back home. So Nicki drove us back for the first hour or so, then she was starting to nod off. Then I took over the wheel for the rest of the way.
And that was our day trip! I had so much fun and I wish I could do this more often…
I also wanted to show off some of the stuff that I bought while we were up there…
My souvenirs from the Smithsonian Museum of Natural History: Cherry Blossom Collectible Lapel Pin and Cherry Blossom Ceramic Shotglass.
Even though we didn’t really see cherry blossoms there, I still found these things more fascinating than everything else that I saw at the shop. And, just so everyone knows, I collect shot glasses. But, yes, I will actually use that shot glass. It seems pretty fitting to drink sake with plum wine in this.
My pick-ups from The Face Shop: Pomegranate, Rice, and Lemon face masks; Jeju Volcanic Lava 3-step nose strip pack, Raspberry Roots collagen eye patches (for these long nights of video editing and late blogging); and Chia Seed Watery Eye & Spot Essence.
Along with my pick-ups above, I got some freebies. Who doesn’t love getting free stuff?
My tiny haul from Lil’ Thingamajigs: Monsta X Shine Forever Repackaged album, BTS You Never Walk Alone album, 2 EXO Chanyeol and 2 BTS V waterproof stickers, and 2 jewelry rings.
I don’t know how I’m going to open the Monsta X album package. I don’t want to ruin the label that’s sealing it up. I might just cut it from the bottom. I don’t know…
With my Monsta X album, I got a free poster! But I don’t have any more room to put up this poster… not with all the BTS and EXO ones that I have.
For the past 2 or 3 weeks, I’ve been trying to catch up on these comebacks by reacting to some of music videos that came out this month. There were only a select few that I reacted to, and here are my extended thoughts that I didn’t have enough MBs to discuss on-camera. Haha.
BTS (방탄소년단) – Come Back Home
Before I even watched this music video, I had no idea that it was for Seo Taiji’s 25th Anniversary. But the first thing that I thought about when I heard that BTS came out with this music video, I thought about 2NE1’s Come Back Home. Then, I found an article – I don’t remember if it was from allkpop or Soompi or Koreaboo – and saw that the article talked about other artists did some form of dedication or remake of this song.
I had also listened to the original song, and I couldn’t help but laugh at the trends that they followed back in the day when K-pop started out. But it also made me realized that the western world of hip-hop was no different. The music, the fashion, almost everything is similar. My eyes have been opened to all the common things that all parts of the world have with each other all this time, but it still amazes me everytime I witness things like this. That’s why there’s that saying that “music is universal.”
DAY6(데이식스) “Hi Hello”
With this reaction, I picked up the tiny passion for editing videos. Behind the scenes, I thought that I was going to have a hard time editing this video. I thought that so hard… that I almost wasn’t going to keep going with this little hobby of mine on my own. The thought of losing sleep because I knew it was going to take me a while to get through finishing this video was worrying me. I hadn’t gotten enough sleep to begin with and losing even more sleep was not ideal. But… I kept at it. And I enjoyed working on this video, as well as enjoyed watching the men singing in this video.
Oh, and I’m a little sad that Jae took a break from Twitter again. But I understand that he’s busy. 화이팅, Jae!
[STATION] 시우민 X 마크 Young & Free
I felt like my reactions lacked a lot in this video. And I think it shows in the amount of views it got. I don’t know. This video, according to the stats, only got 3 views. Sometimes, I think, “is SM Station something that people enjoy?” or “do even the diehard SM fans enjoy this project?” I looked into this Station project when SM started it up at the beginning of last year, around the same time that they were putting NCT at the forefront, and I initially thought the idea of putting out a new song (that’s not a comeback) once every week was a cool idea.
I haven’t really looked into it lately, but I have noticed that this is the second year that SM Station has been out, and that there are more non-Korean tracks coming out. It’s not that I am opposed to it, but I wasn’t expecting it. I don’t really know what to think about this project anymore… other than, I think they are running out of ideas with Station. That, or they’re reaching new heights by connecting with non-Korean artists? I think I’m missing some vital information about SM Station this time around. I hope I don’t receive too much backlash with this opinion. I like SM for their artists, but their management – from what I read in the media – is not so good and I feel like they’re trying too hard?
Red Velvet 레드벨벳 – 빨간 맛 Red Flavor
Not like anyone asked, but if I were to rank Red Velvet’s title tracks from my most favorite to least favorite, my list would look like this:
Ice Cream Cake
7월 7일 (One Of These Nights)
Lately, RV’s music hasn’t really suited my taste. I didn’t like Rookie at all. Red Flavor was slightly okay, but it didn’t compare to the first few that have been near the top of my list for the past couple of years. It’s disappointing because I really really like Red Velvet, ore than other girl groups. All the more reason to already look forward to their next come back…
ONE – ‘해야해(heyahe)’
Again, I wasn’t really expecting to react to this, but I felt the need to react to an artist that I have never heard of. It is expected to watch a music video from my favorite groups. But I thought if I expanded every bit in this YouTube thing, one of the things I could do was to expose myself to an artist whom I wasn’t familiar with and create content with this. I consider this video one of the projects that helped me grow a bit.
EXO Ko Ko Bop
I had been waiting for this for FOREVER! EXO has had my heart since I first heard about them in 2013. I’ve been with them through every comeback, and seeing them with this concept has made me feel like I have grown with them also. With their EXODUS album, I thought that they had the sexy concept set then. But boy, they topped that with The War. 전야 The Eve and 소름 Chill showed that side of EXO that has grown up.
I won’t talk too muchmore about EXO’s accomplishments. I could honestly keep going… but I will just end it with…
SEHUN’S VOCALS ON THE EVE… CHRISTMAS CAME EARLY! HALLELUJAH!
Another flame rekindled with this one. Besides EXO, CNBLUE was another group that stole my heart in 2013 when I decided to take this dangerous path towards K-pop obsession. With CNBLUE’s frontman Yonghwa, it was love at first sight. From his acting in You’re Beautiful and Heartstrings, then moving onto his musical endeavors with CNBLUE. So, it only felt natural to want to watch this man make a solo comeback… especially after seeing him in all his handsome and charismatic greatness IN PERSON at KCON last month.
Marry me, 용화 오빠.
KARD – Hola Hola
I don’t have much to say other what I already said in the video: they just debuted FOR REAL and I am looking forward to what they will be doing from this point forward. I’d like see them win an award on any of the music shows eventually.
I’ve been working on this post carefully for the past 2 hours, and right now… I just want to end it quickly. Haha, I’m getting sleepy! I have a post coming up about my trip to D.C. and Annandale that I took with my best friend a couple of days ago. Looking forward to posting about that…
Finally, right!? I finally uploading my experience video on YouTube two days ago.
So I was working on this post exactly 2 weeks ago. I guess the rush of trying to catch up on the comebacks from a month ago caught up to me and I exhausted myself for a bit. So I needed to take a break. Well, I’m back, as I am watching the 14th episode of the crime drama Signal. And I just wanted to share my KCON experience video here.
Gonna post my latest activities on YouTube in a bit…
While I’m waiting for this video to finish exporting, I’m going to spill some thoughts that have been on my mind lately:
So, aside from worrying about the evergrowing list of comebacks, I’ve been putting off this one “thing” that I tasked myself to take care of and see it through to fruition before this year ends. A few of my friends know what it is, but I’m not quite ready to tell the whole world yet. Not that the world really needs to know. But that time will come when it will be known what this “task” is.
I’m also worried about if I’ll be able to carry this YouTube thing on my own. I told one of my coworkers that I took on a hobby of doing this YouTube thing again after taking a break. It’s definitely becoming a hobby, and I love the fact that I can say I am doing some personal and fun projects outside of work. Although after this recent project, it’s driving me insane and into sleeplessness. Hopefully after I keep at it and get back into the groove, it’ll be something that I can devote extra time to. I’m just afraid that with the “thing” I mentioned previously that I’m doing won’t change how I feel about doing these kinds of projects.
Other concerns that are on my plate right now involve the sad news of my youth group coming to a close because of the lack of members we have. It is an organization that I’ve been involved with for 9 years, and it was heartbreaking to see it go down the way that it did. I’ve got some final duties that I need to take care of with regards to the closing my chapter of this organization. I wasn’t ready to let it go, so there were some trinkets and things that I took home with me after cleaning out our usual meeting establishment. I’ve got loads of old pictures to look at, reminisce and create a scrapbook with. I also have figures and awards that I need to go through, and then figure out what I’m going to do with them.
For the past several months, I’ve been trying to take in this concept of minimalism… with my room, my belongings, and my thought process at work. As usual, I’m always trying to get rid some stuff that I don’t use anymore. But by “thought process”, I mean that “less is more” concept when it comes to my correspondences with my clients – my emails can get lengthy and I always tend to write novels, and that’s only because I treat my clients like they know nothing about building websites (which some don’t). Each time a new problem arises with a client, which happens frequently, I have to write manuals explaining why something doesn’t work this way or that way (a.k.a. why they are stupid), and then end it with a potential solution to their problem, which is usually because of user error. It never ends, and there’s never a simple answer to these things. I definitely had one of those moments today at work where I wish we met our clients in person sometimes so that I could strangle them for being so dumb.
Well, it’s another day tomorrow. And my video is still not done exporting. What the fu#&$@R%&*G#YI.
So I filmed the “talking” portion of the video last night. I have about an hour of footage to go through and edit, and then about 500 or so videos and photos to pick and choose from to use in the video…
To preface the amount of videos and photos I have from KCON, I originally thought I had about 400 (HA! I don’t think there’s a difference) and that is because I came unprepared and didn’t think to make space on my phone (prior to leaving for Newark) for the damage I did on the first day. So I, sadly, had to delete what I took on Friday so that I could have some footage for Saturday because more of the groups that I wanted to see were performing on Saturday.
BUT… I just found out how I can retrieve what I deleted last night. Did you know… that the Samsung Note5 has a Trash folder that keeps files in there for up to 15 days? I didn’t know… and I am so happy! Time to restore everything!
It is a Friday, so I am hoping that my job lets us out early again so that I can get right back to work on the video.
In the meantime, take a look at the teaser video I uploaded a few days ago.
I am also hoping to get to a few reactions to new music videos that came out, like Bang Yongguk’s Yamazaki, BTS’s remake of Seo Taiji’s Come Back Home, DAY6’s Hi Hello, and EXO-M Xiumin & NCT Mark’s Young & Free.
This is actually a counterproductive post about other social media platforms that I am on. I just wanted to provide an update and let the rest of the Internet know that I am back on Vingle and K-Pop Amino.
This is the page that everyone needs to pay close attention to: I will be listing my favorite groups and who is/are my bias(es) in each. I will list them in the order that I started getting into them. This is list is still in progress as I will be adding more details and pictures! Come back again another time!